Dear Ronny

Dear Ronny...
ii Had A Dream About
You Last Niite And ii
Cant Get iiT Outta My Miind
Buttah iis Bac and...
EveryTiime ii See Her Face
ii See You And iiT Hurtsz....
ii Cant Beliieve iiTs Been
3 Weeksz Siince ii Seen Ya
Face....
Heard Ya Voiice
Seen Ya Smiile....
DAMN!!! ii Miiss
iiT ii Miis You...
ii Cant Waiit For The Day
Where We Can Meet Agaiin
Always Loviin You...
-ADRIIAN!!!
R.II.P
RONALDO "RONNY" CRUZ
sunriise 4.3.88 sunset 1.7.09

I Feel You

Something stirs me
I feel you from far away,
You are thinking of me
Breathing in time with my heart beat,
I feel you.
Goosebumps are kissing my skin,
A tingle travels up and down my spine,
Its like your hot breath has reached my skin
And is breathing its desire all over me,
I feel you….
My eyes close over as if being told to do so,
And I feel your eyes soften and close,
As if we are tuned into each others movements,
Feeling each other from afar.
I long for you, and you ache for me,
I thirst, you drink,
I stop, you sense it and stand still.
I smile, you hold a moment for me,
You feel me,
And I….
Feel you.

Him...

Describe him someone said
And so I began……
He floods my heart with love,
He touches me
In a way I have never experienced before.
He stirs me and moves me,
He fills my eyes with tears,
My heart with longing,
My soul with yearning.
He kisses me and I am swept away,
I respond to his touch,
Like the sand to the sea.
I dissolve into him……
I crave his touch
Long for his next breath on my skin,
Thirst for him like a desert
Hungering for a rain.
I am compelled only to touch him,
To want him, to love him.
He is my dream in the dark vast of night,
He is the glow on my skin,
The smile on my face,
The sparkle in my eye,
The Love of my life…
I love him.
-adriian

Sweet Depths Of Love

Like warm waves on a naked body
You touch me in ways I cannot describe,
I am overwhelmed, as my heart speaks louder than my mind
This is where we belong, together, you me and our kisses

Like the taste of a peach on your tongue,
That dissolves with juices flowing
You delight in the sweet wine of me, and drink
With the thirst of a thousand deserts.

I love you more with every breath I take
Every murmer and moan of intense pleasure,
I adore you like a million stars adore the night sky
As you lavish love upon me like chocolate sauce on ice cream.

Draping yourself over me as I melt at the magical touch that is you.
Time bears no meaning when I am enveloped in the warmth of you.
And you, you look deep into my eyes and speak the words I am sure,
A thousand hearts and ears would yearn and ache to hear,
“You love me.”

You Are...

You are..
My stars my moon
My day my night
My heaven my earth
My love my life.

My mind my soul
My flame my fire
My thoughts my dreams
My hearts desire

My spirit my song
My rhyme my verse
My dusk my dawn
My universe

My north my south
My shore my sea
My ocean of love
My destiny.

My summer my spring
My warmth my sun
My everything
My only one…I love you.
-adriian

DRAMA

ii hate cryiin cause headaches come riight after them...
or maybe iits thiis headband but iim pretty sure iits the
cryiin
ii cant waiit to leave thiis house and neva comebac tiill ready
me always haviin to be riigh ant hiis always haviin to be riight dnt
clash...my siister iis oo lucky
she moved to vermount and she aiint commiin bac untiill next yr oo soo luck iis she....ii hate how lucky she iis..and ii was
happy today
why he had to take out
hiis angry on my brother and
put iit on me
not riite not riite tatall...
hate my father wiit all my heart and soul

Your Liike A Ghost

Your like a ghost that haunts
Every corner of my soul
Your with me all the time
Even though i am alone

There are moments i set aside
For silent thoughts of you
Quiet, private, episodes
To reflect on something new

Your like a ghost you see
For in body you are not here
And i just want you more
With every passing year...

I cannot escape from you
You are haunting my dreams
I cant push you from my heart
For i do not have the means

Your like a ghost you see
Wandering around my soul
An ache that im carrying
The hole in my soul...

Lingering like a flame
That simply will not die
And i cannot be rid of you
No matter how i try

You are the ghost in me.............
-adrian

Acceptance..

It has been so hard to know
That i just have to let you go,
Despite my tears and breaking heart
And the emptiness at being apart.
To delete your number from my phone
And accept that i am now alone.
My mind is telling me to forget
My heart somehow sobs with regret.
Half because i met you and let it begin,
Half because of this mess i now find myself in.
Sitting crying like a child that has fallen off a swing,
Feeling just so helpless about everything.
Acceptance is hard, and dont we all know,
Its always the one we love, we have to let go.
So i sit and reflect in my silence and tears
Holding your memory for all of my years.
Knowing i loved you with all of my heart
Yet aching for you, now that we are apart.
I feel somehow numb, like there has been a death,
And because i love you still, dont want to forget.
Forget how you kissed me and held me so tight,
Looked into my eyes that very first night.
So i sit here wondering where you are,
Making a wish on a shooting star,
That this acceptance will fade to grey
And you will again love me some day.
See that without me your heart is torn
And come to me at the break of a dawn,
Telling me how you just cannot be..
Anywhere in the world except beside me.
But with a sinking heart i know it for sure
Your not coming back anymore.......
-Adrian

Somewhere in time

Somewhere in time I loved you
More than I have ever loved before
And I hold that deep inside me
For no one could love you more.

Your handsome looks that melted me
Turning my whole body weak,
Your kiss that left me breathless
And at times unable to speak.

Your eyes that held me hypnotised
Your hands so manly and strong,
In an instant I fell in love with you,
Whether it was right or it was wrong.

And now somewhere in time you wander
Around and over this big wide world,
Not knowing how much you are wanted
By this sentimental girl...

Maybe the hands of fate will help out
And the winds of time will bring you back,
Sweeping your soul towards me again
Removing my ache and my lack.

Somewhere in time, when a moon glows
And a blanket of stars cover the sky
You will take a moment to think of me,
To stop still, and ask yourself why.

Why you wandered away from my heart
And turned your own heart to stone,
Leaving me somewhere in time
Loving you all alone......

Breaking Into Pieces

Falling apart
Broken in two...
Or maybe a million,
Because of you

Torn apart
Tears falling like rain
Hurting so much
Never again!

I gave you my love
I gave you my heart,
And what did you do?
You tore it apart.

Saying your sorry
You walked away,
Leaving me crying
And hurting this way.

And now there is silence
No more you....
And my heart breaks
At my loss of you.

I have fallen apart
My heart in tatters
Broken into pieces
Not that it matters.

You withdrew away
You left me to cry
And I will never know
The reason why.

I loved you so much
You will never know,
How I broke into pieces
And watched you go…

Notice Me...

Here I stand
Waiting patiently for you to come hold my hand
Trying to make you understand
No need to make a demand
For I am here...your wish is my command
Notice Me...
My heart aching from all this pain
Yet my Love for you will sustain
With time I know our Love can attain
With our trust and strength we can obtain
I promise to keep our house, our children well maintain
No matter what happens in our lives...I will do my best to have our family retain
Just believe in me, in us...I have nothing to lose but gain.
-adrii2crazii

He....

He is the one...
For he was born for me,
To love me
And all i feel is
him,
Beneath my layers
Deep in my heart
Within my soul
Its him.
I was born to love him
Through decades
Centuries
Lifetimes
Its him...
And if i ever lose him...
I will find him again,
Somwhere through time
Within worlds of stars
Planets
Moons.
Oceans of time.
For its him.
He...
is the sun to my soul.

TOUCH ME AGAIIN.....

Like the sand that is kissed by the ocean
Grain and grain of my soul did surrender,
I dissolved and melted into your hands
Feeling surges and waves of pleasure.

I felt dizzy and a weakness descended
And I prayed that this wasn’t a dream,
With your kiss so soft and tender
All of my life where had you been?

I looked up at you and you smiled
And I had to catch my breath,
That moment was truly beautiful
Too beautiful to ever forget.

I was trembling inside and out
As your eyes saw into my soul,
Tears welled up in my eyes
This was beyond my hearts control.

Goosebumps ran and lay down
Their dance of desire upon my skin,
And I surrendered my all to you
Overwhelmed by these feelings within.

I became so swept away by you
I knew I would never be the same,
For you made all time stand still
Please come back and touch me again…
- Adrii2Crazii

My First True Love

My first true love meant a lot to me,
But now I cry at every memory.
That we shared such a short time ago.
Why is it hurting so bad to let you go?
My first true love taught me a lot of things,
But now it's time for us to spread our wings,
As we say goodbye,
To the love we had,
But doing that makes me sad.
My first true love,
Really stole my heart.
Please tell me, why did you rip it all apart?
It will be awhile,
Before I let someone in.
And now, I don't trust anyone,
Not even as a friend.
My first true love,
Really swept me off my feet.
Yes, it was that kind of love,
One that no other man could complete.
I know that eventually,
I will move on.
But the memories are there,
They will never be gone.
My first true love,
Was a precious thing.
Talking all night about the love we would share,
Not only as a couple,
But also as a pair.
We talked about being together,
For the rest of our lives,
Not as boyfriend and girl friend,
But as husband and wife.
Your first true love,
Is usually the one that hurts so badly,
Especially when you think about,
All the good times we had.
The laughing, the crying,
And staying up all night.
Always wanting to see each other,
Making up after every fight.
My first true love,
Really broke my heart,
And now it's too painful,
For us to be apart.
I will always love you,
But I have to realize,
My first true love,
Was just a regular guy.
-adrii2crazii

Neva Hang Up...

Dear Bloggersz ii wanna sare thiis wiit you...
My boyfren wrote thiis poem for me....
smh...hes sweet...

Damn I love when the sun goes down and the moon comes up because thats when we can take on the phone we could just be laying down on the phone not saying anything and we never want to hang up I love the way u call me baby over the phone it show me how much u care because when u put on your sexy voice your baby never want to hang up so lets talk till morning time and I just let u talk because that all I need to be happy just me and u on the phone we both never want to hang up it make me feel like I might lose u .

*Yung Heartless

R.II.P RONALDO "RONNY" CRUZ

R.II.P
Ronaldo "Ronny" Cruz
sunriise 4.3.88 sunset 1.7.09
smh liife iis too short
Tiired Of Cryiin....
Ya Gurl iis Bac...
Bac On That...
Grown And Sexii
iif only he can see how iive grown...
he would have been soo proud to see
how iimma women now....
and now butta carry hiis seed
ii bet thats makiin hiim soo plzed
cause ii member how he always saiid
the day butta agreed to have hiis baby
iis the day hell drop dead....
So sad that iit had to be liiterally..
iimma miiss how u use to beat up the boys
that use to piic on me...
ya laugh iimprinted iinsiide my head
neva heariin iit agaiin iis the part ii dreed...
oo lawd what are we gunna do wiitout u..
all ii can do iis thank god for the tiime
ii had wiit you
iily
adriiana!!!

Fall

Everyday ii get up
hes on my miind
ii cant get enough
and ii dnt noe why
but iits more than a crush
ii cant beliieve iits getiin deeper
all the tiime ii wanna see her

but iit wasnt suppose to go thiis way
he was suppose to be another game to play
and ii cant fiigure iit out
ii dnt noe how he
diid iit but
he made me fall

ii neva thought iit can happen to me but
iim fiindiin myself on the ground
and ii just dnt noe how ii got here
all ii noe iis that iim down and out

but iit wasnt pose to go thiis way
he was pose to be another game to play
and ii cant fiigure iit out
ii dnt noe how he diid iit
but he made me fall

have you ever meet someone
that u thought was for the moment
than they came and stole ya heart
before u knew iit iit was stolen
and than iit took you by surprise
cause u neva say iit comiin
and now ii cant deny that
BABY YOU GOT ME FALLiiN!!!

Stress

My world jus spiins than stops
ii fall...
ii try to get up but ii cant
my body doesnt move...
ii move my mouth to make a sound
nothiin comes out...


My Miind iis all ova the place but ii noe
where ii wanna bee...and thats riight there
next to you so iits your choiice...are you down or not...
cause iim soo iinto iit...
iif only ii can tell you thiis
i noe ii cant but why cant ii
ii can say iit all ii want iin thiis blog
but when iit come to hiim
iits liike th poem above
nuttiin comes out

Feeliins

iits 09 and already
iim filled wiith soo many feeliing
ii mean ii new iit wasnt true
ii told myself that from the jump...
so why am ii stiil goiin crazy for hiim
iis iit because he always say the riight
thiing or iis iit because he calls me hiis
number one gurl...does that mean he have number
2 number 3...ii mean...what does he mean...
how diid thiis turn into thiis...how diid thiis
one guy turn iinto the one guy ii want to be wiit
the one guy ii wanted to stay away from how diid he...
how diid we end up here...smh
lol...how he got me sayiin that...
but ii noe iits not gunna happen
ii jus cant help these feeliins