Acceptance..

It has been so hard to know
That i just have to let you go,
Despite my tears and breaking heart
And the emptiness at being apart.
To delete your number from my phone
And accept that i am now alone.
My mind is telling me to forget
My heart somehow sobs with regret.
Half because i met you and let it begin,
Half because of this mess i now find myself in.
Sitting crying like a child that has fallen off a swing,
Feeling just so helpless about everything.
Acceptance is hard, and dont we all know,
Its always the one we love, we have to let go.
So i sit and reflect in my silence and tears
Holding your memory for all of my years.
Knowing i loved you with all of my heart
Yet aching for you, now that we are apart.
I feel somehow numb, like there has been a death,
And because i love you still, dont want to forget.
Forget how you kissed me and held me so tight,
Looked into my eyes that very first night.
So i sit here wondering where you are,
Making a wish on a shooting star,
That this acceptance will fade to grey
And you will again love me some day.
See that without me your heart is torn
And come to me at the break of a dawn,
Telling me how you just cannot be..
Anywhere in the world except beside me.
But with a sinking heart i know it for sure
Your not coming back anymore.......
-Adrian